Oh, Vsah was definitely holding on to both. And appreciated both, even with a new wave of guilt following in the wake of his reaction.

It took him a while more to get words to work, and his voice was also quiet, and flat.

"It's all right, Wolfwood. It just keeps taking me by surprise, right now." And there it was, the other reason why he had been out there. Although it clearly had not been the where...

"When I'm prepared for it, it won't be like this." It would still hurt, of course, but wasn't it right to do so?

A little more, and he managed to articulate another thought. "If she is building a house for all of us... then she has met many. And that means many went there. So, perhaps, the location is because people end up there. Willingly or not."

He was trying. He didn't sound well, but he was trying to not drown in the memories once more.