[in case you were wondering? the pain is immense. the blood tastes too familiar dribbling between his teeth-- but like always, he tries to work through the pain, try to grasp on to that pinprick of calm (but not serenity) to keep things. Calm.

he takes a deep breath, then laughs]

Think that'll ruin all your hard work, but alright. Just do it. It'll be fine, once it's out.

[it's gonna be bad.]

If I pass out, don't freak. That's normal.