[ She can have all the moments she needs, he's not going anywhere.
When she does look up, his eyes are a little bloodshot, but dry, and so, so gentle, though he nearly flinches to see her tears. He never wanted to hurt her. But he did. And he's sorry. But none of this place will make sense unless she knows that part. But he's sorry. He's sorry. ]
I... I didn't choose... no. But without something I did, we'd all still be on the way to the original SEEDS destination. Maybe Nai would have found a way to forgive.... they would all be alive. [ You would still be alive--
His right hand shifts, to wipe at her tears gently, knowing she's crying too much to actually do more than smear them, but he needs to. ]
I was found by very good people. Perhaps if I hadn't run, he'd have gotten a chance to see, too, that not all people want to hurt and use and abuse plants. But he wanted me to be happy with him, and for the first time, I couldn't.
[ At least the second point he is closer to accpeting, even if it is still barely there. He lowers his eyelashes for a moment. Because she is asking him, she is asking that one thing of him, and he can't just leave it in the air between them. ]
I'll try.
[ And also she may note that while he is clearly weighted down by what happened, not once does he sound like he hates Nai, or wants him destroyed. Because he truly doesn't. Vash loves his brother, even on the days he is terrified of him... and certainly on the days when he is terrified for him. ]
It's all... easier to bear when I help people - humans or plants - recover and get better. So that is what I do.
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When she does look up, his eyes are a little bloodshot, but dry, and so, so gentle, though he nearly flinches to see her tears. He never wanted to hurt her. But he did. And he's sorry. But none of this place will make sense unless she knows that part. But he's sorry. He's sorry. ]
I... I didn't choose... no. But without something I did, we'd all still be on the way to the original SEEDS destination. Maybe Nai would have found a way to forgive.... they would all be alive. [ You would still be alive--
His right hand shifts, to wipe at her tears gently, knowing she's crying too much to actually do more than smear them, but he needs to. ]
I was found by very good people. Perhaps if I hadn't run, he'd have gotten a chance to see, too, that not all people want to hurt and use and abuse plants. But he wanted me to be happy with him, and for the first time, I couldn't.
[ At least the second point he is closer to accpeting, even if it is still barely there. He lowers his eyelashes for a moment. Because she is asking him, she is asking that one thing of him, and he can't just leave it in the air between them. ]
I'll try.
[ And also she may note that while he is clearly weighted down by what happened, not once does he sound like he hates Nai, or wants him destroyed. Because he truly doesn't. Vash loves his brother, even on the days he is terrified of him... and certainly on the days when he is terrified for him. ]
It's all... easier to bear when I help people - humans or plants - recover and get better. So that is what I do.