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nml_mods ([personal profile] nml_mods) wrote in [community profile] nomans_land2023-05-02 05:02 am
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On The First Day

It had been months.

Months of terror, of families ripped apart, refugees racing against the Ark in the sky, against the Plants that had once been their only source of survival on the world and had now been turned against them, raining lightning and death down on them like the hand of a vengeful God. Humanity pushed to the brink, fleeing their homes and communities, waves of refugees fleeing across the sands as more and more towns and cities fell to the reign of destruction that had been biting at their heels every step of the way.

And then, as the last descendants of the survivors of the Big Fall clustered in the city of Octovern, spiilling out into the streets, every available, livable space filled to capacity and beyond, what felt like the final days of humanity began. The sounds of artillery fire filled the air, the sight of the Ark and its grotesque ruler loomed overhead, and in the distant sky high above, the previously-inconceivable reinforcement ships from Earth took up orbit around No Man's Land. Throughout the night, explosions lit up the sky, thundering with deafening reports through the air, and yet the civilians below had settled into a still, terrified, anticipatory silence. They couldn't see, from their perspective, the figures atop the ruins of the Earth's space destroyers that had already fallen to the ground, locked in battle for the future of the people far below. But the sight of Millions Knives high above, terrifying and grotesque with the power of the Plants he had absorbed, was omnipresent, a never-ending threat, the harbinger of doom, biding his time until he could make good on his promise to wipe every last one of them off the face of existence.

And then something had changed.

Electrical currents rippled through the air above the downed ship, carrying screams on the wind. To the people below, Millions Knives' massive form had shifted, writhing, bellowing with unholy rage and pain and despair. And then it begun to unmake itself, shredding, crumbling, tearing itself apart at the seams and floating to the ground in tiny, shining, white particles. Tiny, white feathers drifted on the wind, closer and closer before, one by one, they began to settle to the roofs of the buildings, to the tops of cars and to the streets, and to the heads and faces of the humans staring up from below.

The instant that contact was made between feather and skin, a connection was made; between Human and Plant, between each person standing side by side, minds thrown open in bursts of light and expanding consciousness, and through the doors sprang multitudes of memories spanning hundreds of years. Suffering, laughter, pain, sorrow, joy, enslavement, death, pride, love. The Plants had made the connection to their creators - their keepers - that they had been silently pleading for since their first containment, and with it every man, woman, and child on the surface of the world began to see and feel and hear their stories and their cries for help. They did not want this war, they did not want this destruction. They had seen the promises of vengeance and a paradise for their kind atop the bones of humanity offered by Millions Knives and they had felt the hopes and dreams carried by Vash the Stampede of a kinder, more loving world, and they had made their choice.

Of course, but...what would he do at a time like this?


I wonder if he'll laugh again


I wonder if he'll follow his ideals again.


I see. You all know him as well. That young man with a gentle smile.


Little Red Brother.


Let there be love and peace in this world.


In the chaos that followed, as the bodies of the Plants began tumbling to the ground in a writhing mass and the screams of shock and confusion began to rise from the sea of humanity below, something rippled in the air, a last gasp of those silent voices before the connection was lost.

Help Us. Help him. Please.


This was...different. New. As if reality had taken the distraction caused by the calamity below to shift itself sharply to the left, and then snapped. It started at the core of the mass of angelic bodies as men and women began to rush to their aid, a shockwave in the fabric of creation that rumbled silently in the atoms of the world and ricocheted outward, along the ground, through the air, until it had enveloped the entire planet. Time froze for an instant, and to the eyes of all who had the capacity for sight, that leftward shift became manifest, the world doubling on itself as the ground shook beneath their feet.

Wails of confusion and fear rose into the night sky, and for a brief moment, it felt as if the world were about to unmake itself on the molecular level. But then, just as suddenly as it had come, the distortion snapped back into place with a loud, ear-splitting CRACK, and in the stunned silence that followed, only one thing could be certain; things were not the same as they had been mere moments ago, as if everything and yet nothing at all had changed, all at once.

The world of No Man's Land was as it should be, but all across the surface of the planet, pockets of reality had split open, sending the inhabitants of mirrored existences tumbling through wide, unseen rifts. People and places outside of time and space found themselves staggering to their feet in a world that was both foreign and familiar at the same time, found themselves face to face with their own reflection made flesh, tossed about by the pleas of a race reaching across the fabric of creation for aid in putting a stop to a war that had been fought time and time again, across reality after reality, without fail.


Thus began the new chapter in the history of No Man's Land.



[Wherever your character was, whatever they were doing, when the rifts in reality opened, they will have found themselves rocked by a massive earthquake that lastes a few short seconds before settling with a loud crack, like thunder. While no damage will be left in its wake, the characters themselves will realize that though the planet appears to be the same, it will quickly become evident that they are in an alternate reality of the place they call home. Are they standing in the rubble of a once-destroyed city now remade whole? Is the bar they had been taking refuge in suddenly gone, leaving them tumbling to the sand with nothing but their drink in their hand? And what of the friends that had been standing by their side seconds before? This is where your stories begin.]
cowgoesmoo: (shocked - listening at keyholes)

[personal profile] cowgoesmoo 2023-05-24 10:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Peanut butter! Yeah! With a huge grin Vash tears open the wrapper and takes a huge bite... then spits the gummy, flavorless wad out onto the floor a moment later. ]

Yuck! [ It's bad enough that he scrubs at his mouth with the back of his hand, trying to get the taste out. ] It tastes like moldy cardboard!

[ It looks okay, the rest of the bar that's in his hand. But when he sniffs it, ugh. No way, it smells disgusting! ]

That's so gross! [ He holds it out to Knives. ] Here, you try it!
littleblades: (50)

[personal profile] littleblades 2023-05-24 10:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ immediately he jerks away from vash pushing the bar at him, nose scrunching up in disgust. ]

No way. I don't eat that stuff.

[ or anything. ]

This is all that's left here. I doubt anything else we find will taste any better.
cowgoesmoo: (quiet - considering new info)

[personal profile] cowgoesmoo 2023-05-24 10:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Aw, he's not gonna taste the disgusting thing? Boo.

Vash scowls at the remaining bar, then, with an air of great resignation, folds the wrapped around the open bit and sticks it in his pocket for later.
]

Then let's figure out how to get back. I'm gonna starve if I have to eat that stuff.

[ Which brings them back to their earlier conversation, doesn't it? Where are they, exactly? ]

I don't even know how I got here, though.
rejuvenation: (2)

[personal profile] rejuvenation 2023-05-24 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The wings and feathers rustle, a few smaller ones flapping as he touches them and thanks them for keeping her safe. There are only wings left of the plants that decided to save her, no other limbs or features, but they can still somehow react and protect their little broken seedling.

It's a lot friendlier than a glass tube of pain, and a lot more deadly.

Tessla smiles - or at least she tries, but her mouth is a horror and she hides it even from herself under more wings. ]


They can carry me. Us. For the pieces. But it hurts so much to move, V̻͖̩̊̏͑̚͠ͅa̠̳͂̍s̴̈̓ḩ̝͈̳̀̏͒̍̒̄.

[ She says, then coughs wetly. It's more than she's spoken in a long time. The screaming is different, then it isn't just her voice.

The cocoon's consciousness, the one in symbiosis with her own, gently push the pieces of her into the middle by Vash, as if they're offering him a gory puzzle. At least that seems like an answer. A prayer. ]


SAVE H̥ͪ̂͛͆͜E̫͒͒̽ͦ̈͘Ṟ̔̉
L̖̝̭̟̮̩ͤ̌ͮͮ̑Ì̴̥̲͙̭͎̎ͮͥT̷͆̔ͫ́̑̍T͇͚̠͖L̠ͮͣ̈̽̃E͑ͨ ̜̳̤̝͖͂͗͑̉̓B͙̩͈̘͓̬̜̽ͦR̩̠̹͛̈́ͤ̽̾ͩ͐Ŏ̴̽̋T̴͈̼͔͚̫̟ͦ̐ͣ̄ͣ̾̚H̷͓̠̄͗E̫͇̙͙̗̫͆̏̃̒̇̏̂R̡̽͌̿̆̚
mercifullyheavy: (Screaming)

[personal profile] mercifullyheavy 2023-05-25 02:52 am (UTC)(link)
[The shift from memories of himself seen from the other side of the perspective is strange, leaves him drifting, consciousness overwhelmed, his sense of self barely holding on as he watched, and for a moment, it was almost enough to calm the turmoil that he was feeling. Brother Livio? No. Nai-Knives-the memories of a childhood filled with laughter and green fields and joy, no hardship, it's wonderful, so wonderful, like nothing he ever had and the small part of himself that is still aware enough to recognize where he ends and Vash's memories begin recognizes what he's seeing enough to mourn that it was something he had never had. Feeling it, the happiness of it even through the filter of what's happening, is overwhelming in a way the other memories hadn't been.

But then the pain starts again and he stops breathing altogether. The happiness shatters, a little girl - barely old enough to be a baby but looking much older - suspended in a jar of chemicals and dead, dismembered, disected, and the absolute horror of it, feeling the sudden fear of a child truly realizing for the first time that he is other, that he's in danger, alone. Remembering the Fall, Knives unhinged, mad with glee for what he'd done, waging murder across a defenceless town while Vash screamed and begged and pleaded for it to stop, Knives belittling Vash for being thirsty in a God-damned desert wasteland!

What hits him the hardest, what can't be tempered by even the fear that the little boy in the distant bed might never wake up and the mother in the nearer bed might die because of what he'd done and he might die, alone, so alone, is the rage that builds, intense and feral and vicious, protective, willing to risk killing them - him, Vash, both of them - if it means taking a chance at escaping from the deranged madman contorlling an army of sisters. The horror and pain of having power forced out of him while Knives looks on in wild glee.

The sight of lamps overhead, bright, too bright, the murmurings of a mad scientist and fucking Knives nearby while needles embed in his skin and tear and rip and suddenly Wolfwood is in his own memories again, laying on his own medical table, screaming, needles and knives and cruel experiments and it's the same, the same table, the same doctor! They'd done it to Vash! They'd done it to Vash!

And then suddenly, his leg was buckling violently underneath him and he was falling to the ground, his grip on white, gleaming feathers separating as he came back to himself. He gasped once, twice, and then the sound of his voice began low in his throat as his mind tried to piece itself back together from what had happened. Growling, snarling, almost a low scream as he tucked his shoulder and rolled, coming to rest immediately on his back, and now with his gun in his hands, his eyes crazed and darting around for the man who'd started all of it. He had to stop him, he'd failed once, not again, not again, just one fucking bullet!

It was only the fact that he found himself staring at a child at the end of the barrel that stayed his hand, but even that was a tenuous thing. His hands shook, teeth clenched so tight he could feel it in the hinge of his jaw as his mind finally began to settle back into reality. Still snarling, still growling.]


G-...g-give me...give me a reason! [Why he shouldn't, why it was wrong, why it wouldn't solve all of their problems and make up for even a fraction of the agony he had put them all through.] GIVE ME A GOOD FUCKING REASON!
dontdeserve: (no...)

sorry, nai. sorry.

[personal profile] dontdeserve 2023-05-25 04:23 am (UTC)(link)
[ Vash was about say something to Nai about that kick when he and his brother were pulled in by the wings, and any words died on his lips under the flood of memories, wonderful and terrifying and different, but then his own started rising up, pulled to the surface by the presence of Nai so, so young, and so determined to be there by his side.

Similar fields of green, peace and serenity, just the two of them crawling behind Rem as she's watching again the recordings of them.

A single geranium in a laboratory filled with living parts of their older sister, and the sheer horror of what was done to her, on what might be coming to them.

Nai looking up from reading the Bible, telling him that humans are repeat offenders.

Nai standing up on a rock, cackling as ships burn around them. And you are my accomplice, Vash!

Vash in handcuffs, shut in a cell, waiting for experiments on him to start, feeling of hunger gnawing at him but the food untouched next to him, when he can hear the Plant shrieking, the pain and loneliness overwhelming, and then he is beating against the locked door, shouting to be let out, to be allowed to help, until Luida comes and opens the door and he stumbles, but then his little hand finds her slightly bigger one, and there is hope.

Vash's Gate opening, dark whirlpool sucking everything in right from his left palm, red Plants all around them, their pain echoing in his mind, dead humans and so much blood, and Nai's blades cutting off his arm, pain, pain but also gratitude because he was panicking and Nai saved him, saved them all, Nai crawling across the floor because what he had done staggered him.

Vash, sinking into water until a pair of blades pin his shoulders, and dark tendrils start issuing from him--
]

NO!!!

[ As Vash struggled to stumble out, away, no, don't show this to Nai, please, there is one last glimpse of memory, one of extreme wrongness, and distorted as though coming through so much thick liquid.

Memory manipulation and assimilation complete. Conrad's voice.

And then, Nai. I've finally got him back.

And then he had lost contact with the feathers, disoriented, shivering, only to see Wolfwood pointing a gun at Nai, little Nai, who had not done any of these things, and it was Vash's turn to scramble on his knees to sort of wedge in between them. His voice was broken, gasping.
]

He only-- saw that you were m-making Vash cry. It's. It's so much...
littleblades: (6)

[personal profile] littleblades 2023-05-25 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
[ everything all at once and nai is helpless against the onslaught.

memory after memory after memory, they blend and blur together without a moment to breathe in between, leaving nai at their disorienting whim. he sways on his feet because terribly, the most coherent thought that stands out against everything happening all at once is the recurring them of him. himself. knives, kni, nai, and everything in between.

he wanted to know, but he didn't. maybe because he already knew anyways. only now he had the memories that played out like movies to go with the yawning, aching horror that he was the villain here. not at all like the brave heroes in the movies he loved so much, fighting for what was right. that wasn't him at all and the reality of it sinks in straight into his chest.

he's pulled away from the wave of memories to bear witness to wolfwood pulling the gun on him. he stares down into the barrel, eyes wide as the moons in the sky and pupils dilated as he breathes hard. he can't move, even when he knows he's going to die he just can't move. the world moves slowly around him, every voice miles away. vash let go of his hand and now he was lost.

he watches vash intervening, one vash out of two who both held his hand and smiled at him as if they loved him, but that isn't right. that can't be right. not after what he's seen, what they know about him, it's just not right at all.

nai moves without thinking, taking a jilted step back and then another before taking off into the city's connected alleys. his heart is beating so fast it hurts, but he doesn't stop running. ]
nyctinasty: (7)

[personal profile] nyctinasty 2023-05-25 11:34 am (UTC)(link)
"He would if I told him to." Out of fear, perhaps! Or out of some desire to know what Vash is capable of himself; the only hope humanity had needed to be able to effectively fight back against a far stronger opponent, after all.

There's a sidelong glance back at Vash, and what sounds awfully like a put upon sigh. "When I use this area as an example it's not a demand you start right now, little brother. This sort of emptiness is where you should practice, not necessarily this very moment; there's nothing here to harm." And inevitably there would be another tragic spiral of angst and misery should Vash accidentally kill one of his precious humans while attempting to learn his very nature. "...But very small. Very.. One could squash the entirety of this planet down and only get a hole maybe two centimeters across."

A speck. Less than a speck. Those tiny less than a specks had been enough to disrupt everything Knives had been doing. "Or bigger ones, and use them to ... I don't know, carve your name into the desert floor. Add another eye and a smile to the fifth moon."

Probably not good ideas.
love_and_peace: (sad - razlo's face is melted)

[personal profile] love_and_peace 2023-05-25 01:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[ One by one, the pieces of his heart pull away, radiating back horror and disgust and rage at what they've seen inside him, until he's once again empty and alone. His arms are still extended in the shape of Wolfwood's body, around the ghost of a man that for one moment he got to hold as he falls to his knees, too tired to stand on his own any longer.

He hurt Nai.

One shaking hand reaches up, tangling around the roots of the nearest clump of feathers, and he digs his nails in as hard as he can. Blood bubbles up as he tears the handful free, scattering red-tinged feathers into the street around him.

He hurt Wolfwood.

A second handful follows the first, the pain when the feathers rip free making him gasp. But they have to come out – he has to stop. He's hurt so many people. This thing that he is, this creature, this monster, this eruption of half-formed life that destroys everything it touches – he needs it gone.

He even hurt the echo of himself, the him that isn't him.

Handful by handful, he'll pull the feathers from his skin until he looks human again, or until the pain and exhaustion knock him unconscious. He doesn't really care which comes first.
]
dontdeserve: (sheepish)

[personal profile] dontdeserve 2023-05-25 02:31 pm (UTC)(link)
"Ah... all right. Yes, it'll be better out in the desert, I can see that."

Embarrassed, a little, but also he doesn't know how soon he might need to use his powers. So in some ways, the sooner he starts, the better. But what Knives says makes sense, and never mind that this time, 'little brother' makes him feel something soft and warm inside, something he'd mostly given up on feeling ever again.

He swallows, then laughs quietly. "He probably would, he does rather work with you, well, he does where I am from. You would tell him to take a plant, and he would collect it."

Beat, and Vash looks up, making a face. "What happened to the fifth moon, anyway?"

Because his one is certainly not like that.
mercifullyheavy: (WHAT THE WHAT???)

[personal profile] mercifullyheavy 2023-05-25 03:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[There was a moment when his vision swam, rage still bubbling up in his chest, memories still flickering like dying lights behind his eyes that he would realize had been from the Vash in front of him and not the Vash he'd been clinging to, once things had started to settle. But right now, everything was swirling, roiling emotion, the need to make it stop, to put an end to it, to make the man who'd caused so much pain get a taste of his own medicine for once in his fucking life.

But then Vash was trying to reason with him, blocking his gun, and he couldn't shoot him, not Vash, his fingers loosening their grip instinctively until the gun almost sagged in his grip. How could he want him to stop? How could he still, after everything he'd been put through, want Knives to be safe??? Was that a mercy he'd ever been offered in return??? Did he honstly think for an instant that his brother would do the same for him???

But no, this was Vash. And Vash, despite every single bit of abuse that had ever been thrown his way, would of course refuse to look at it that way. It made him want to scream, and to be honest, it wouldn't have been the first time if he did, because it was the same damn argument they'd had countless times before!

The moment was enough for Nai to slip his focus, though, and enough that when the kid ran off into the desert, he didn't redirect his aim, didn't take the shot, but instead looked more startled than anything. His thoughts were already beginning to settle back into themselves, leaving a massive migraine throbbing behind his eyes, but he was himself, again, in fits and starts, and for a few breaths, he honestly expected the Vash beside him to reach over and yank him around by his hair for having aimed a gun at the kid in the first place.

It wasn't until he heard the ragged gasp that he began to realize something else entirely had begun to go wrong around him. The sight of gleaming white feathers against bright red had become so normal to him that he didn't notice them at first as they fell to the street beside him, and he was so dazed that the wet, squelching rip didn't register, either. But then one of them drifted close enough that it brushed his hand as it fell, spiking through a fleeting shock of foreign emotion - pain, horror, self-loathing, rip it out, rip it out!!! - and he flinched away, looking over in surprise to find Vash pulling entire handfulls of himself apart.]


Vash, oh God, what the fuck??? [His gun was tossed aside as he lunged to his knees, reaching out to grab his wrists before the sight fully sank in and he jerked back. The feathers, it was the feathers! He'd thought they were purely a...a defensive mechanism, a part of who he truly was that he kept hidden so he wouldn't frighten people, but they were more than that! He didn't want to grab for him, making that connection again when his fingers grasped onto more of them and just start the whole cycle over again, but he couldn't let him continue!] He's gonna tear himself to shreds!

[He only took a moment longer to reach out, grabbing the coiled tails of Vash's coat, before he was moving forward again and using them as a buffer between his hands and the feathers that were still attached as he grabbed him by the wrists and wrestled to pull his hands off of himself. He knew if he really wanted to, Vash was strong enough that he could fight him off, but it wasn't like he was going to just sit back and watch him mutilate himself, either! He had to at least try!]

Vash, no, stop! Stop, sweetheart, it's alright, you're alright!
cowgoesmoo: (surprised - by a cool new bug)

[personal profile] cowgoesmoo 2023-05-25 03:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[ More and more pieces of Tessla drift over to him, and Vash takes a deep breath to try and clear away the sick and the tears. This... this is maybe more than he can handle, maybe more than he's able to do. But he has to try.

Okay. Okay. Step one: make her comfortable, and that means no more moving.
]

Then you don't move, okay? You stay right here. [ He's still holding her hand – he has no plans to let go until he has to – so with his other hand he waves at the nearest wings. ] She needs somewhere to lay down! Somewhere not on the sand!

[ And then step two will be to go get her legs, won't it? He'll have to do that, so she doesn't have to be moved any more. ...He can do this. He can do this. ]

And... and I'll need things! Water, bandages. Pain killers! [ Really, he needs to take her back up to the ship, but that's impossible for so many reasons. ] Have you seen any towns? Anywhere with people? I can go and get what she needs, just tell me where to go!
rejuvenation: (5)

[personal profile] rejuvenation 2023-05-25 04:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The wings lean down to gently cradle her body better, to meke a bed for her so she's not laying in the sand. The half-assimilated plants seem to understand what Vash is saying, but they're limited in what they can do. The mention of bandages and pain pills have them all upset again and Tessla's covered. ]

D̗̟͌ͭ̂̃͐R̹̥̟̭͖̼ͮ̏͋͂U͎̣͖̰̍G̡͎̭̩ͪ̏̒̿ͥS͍̞̼ͮ̔ͪ̔ͬͫͪ AND BANDAGES
OVER AND OVER
NO M͇̲̫̞͙͕̞̓ͨ͆̇ͤO͏̫̩̝̫̯̘ͅR̙̣̪͉͇͕̾͊ͬͬE̯̪ͯͮͭͪ̋ͨ
HURTS HURTS H̺̪͂ͫͦ͗̄U͈̜̼̞͆̋́ͦ̊͘R̄ͮ҉͎͎͚̰̬̳T͍̤͎͓S͚̬͉̄ͅ


I... I don't know. What is a t́ͧ͐̌҉̱̻͓̦͓͓o̩̹ͮw̻̻͖̭͔̰͝n̗̻ͣͫ̂͒͑͌̌? People... people will hurt me!

[ She sounds more and more scared, and then there's another shriek and roar from all over, wings beating all around Vash like he's in the middle of a flock of angry swans. ] No, no, please, no more, please.
cowgoesmoo: (angry - with a fresh black eye)

[personal profile] cowgoesmoo 2023-05-25 04:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Something he said upset the plants, and it takes him a second to realize what it was. They're worried he's going to hurt her? That he's going to... to cut her up, the way the scientists on the ship did? ]

No! No no no, not like that! I wouldn't do that! I meant things to make her not hurt!

[ The plants sound so angry at him now, and Tessla sounds so scared, and he's really just making things worse, isn't he? The wings descend on him, flapping at him and in the chaos he loses his grip on her hand, dropping down to his knees on the sand and covering his head. ]

I'm sorry! I'm sorry, I'm trying to help, I'm sorry!
rejuvenation: (4)

[personal profile] rejuvenation 2023-05-25 04:32 pm (UTC)(link)
D-don't hurt him, p͉̟̯̫̯̼̀̓l̰̻͉͔̞͍ͮ̄̈́̈́́̏̏ȅ̹̪̖̹͓̒́̔̈́̎̀a̡̮̞̻̤̙͙̋ͅs̗͍͇͍̪͉ͩ̉͆e̤̫̫̮̻̾ͦ́ͅ. My little brother.

[ Tessla pleads softly, voice trembling with fear. It makes the wings slowly calm down again, but they keep her more hidden inside the cocoon. Still, she manages to stick her hand out again, pleading to hold his. ]

No people, Vash. No drugs. Please. I'm s̝͈̪͞ͅc̢͎̖͉̟̜ͧͪa͈͖͙̓̾͝r͓͚̣͉̹̠̰̋ͦͥͦeͬ͑ͭͩ͋ͭ̂d̛͈͚̔̌͆ͪͤ. Humans will hurt me.

[ Everything around her so far has been dead and empty, strange structures and long-gone bodies, as well as the endless sand. It was hot and painful but strangely safe, to be alone among the dunes. ]

I'm... I'm very tired.
cowgoesmoo: (miserable and starving)

[personal profile] cowgoesmoo 2023-05-25 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ As soon as he can move again, he lunges for that hand, holding it against his face. ]

I'll go! You don't ever have to see humans again, I promise, I'll go.

[ Another promise. He's making so many promises and doesn't know how in the world he's going to keep any of them. ]

I just need medicines to make you not hurt. I don't want you to hurt.

[ His voice cracks at the end there, just too overwhelmed by this whole situation. ]

I'm sorry.
dontdeserve: (pout)

[personal profile] dontdeserve 2023-05-25 04:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Nai--- Nai! Wait, listen! Possible future or remembered past, you're the only one who determines what you do, who you become! I believe in you!

[ His words could catch up better to his brother than his actions, but someone who could fly could--

Vash turned towards the other him, and then froze, the severe way in which he was just tearing parts of himself hitting him viscerally. He did not know why he was turning on those beautiful feathers like that - not yet - but the action was both something he deeply wanted to do to himself... and looked horrifying from the side.

Wolfwood was already moving, already holding Vash's wrists, so Vash stepped to move around and wrap himself around his other self's back, holding him gently around the chest. He didn't know that the feathers were what caused the memories, or the connection, but he wasn't thinking of any of his own - just the present, and the soft, soothing calm that he radiated when he was trying to help upset Plants. And for good measure, he tried to project it as far as he could, in the hopes that it would reach Nai, too.

And the soft word that Wolfwood used, the one that slipped past his conscious mind, he was sure, from his heart, only steadied him in that loving calm. A memory attempted to flicker in his consciousness, of a nearly incoherent Wolfwood as Vash first met him, but he let it drift past, instead focusing on here and now.
]

Vash... please. It won't make him hurt less, for you to be in pain, or to punish yourself. Please.
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[personal profile] rejuvenation 2023-05-25 05:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She's crying, and it's a horribly wet noise to go with the rest of the bloody mess, desperately clinging to that hand like it it's her last chance of mercy. He makes so many promises, and she's heard promises before, but he's her brother. He will not let her down like they always did.

...but medicine is terrifying. All the needles and solutions and things that made her veins burn and things grow inside her. It's so frightening, and it is so hard to trust, even when it's someone just like her. ]


I'm so s̝͈̪͞ͅc̢͎̖͉̟̜ͧͪa͈͖͙̓̾͝r͓͚̣͉̹̠̰̋ͦͥͦeͬ͑ͭͩ͋ͭ̂d̛͈͚̔̌͆ͪͤ, Vash. I can't stop it sometimes. I'm sorry.
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[personal profile] love_and_peace 2023-05-25 05:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Tear it out, make it stop, hurting everyone, Knives, brother I'm sorry, I hurt Knives, I hurt Knives...

Something catches ahold of him, pinning his arms aside, and Vash can't muster the energy to care who it is or what they want. If he's restrained, then maybe he won't hurt anyone else. They can have him. They can take him away, it's okay. He's done. He's so tired.

But then there's someone warm behind him, someone soothing and gentle who presses up against his back, supporting him, and Vash closes his eyes and lets himself fall back against them. Against the other him. It's safe here, with his other self. It's quiet, and he knows, in his heart, that his other self won't let him hurt Knives anymore. He won't let him hurt Wolfwood. He can stop.

The feathers, mangled bloody ones and pristine alike, begin to pull back beneath Vash's skin as his panicked breathing slows. It's just him and himself here, and Vash turns his face to his other self, whispering secrets as he slips downwards into the welcoming darkness.
]

Please. I don't want to do this anymore.
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[personal profile] nyctinasty 2023-05-25 05:21 pm (UTC)(link)
He waves it off, as if it didn't matter. "There's other things to try in the meantime if you want something less dangerous. We can, for example, grow wings exactly like our sisters. Save on travel time a little." That's safer sounding, isn't it? More reassuring, easier to control. Even if feathers got out of control, that'd just be feathers, not tiny black holes sucking in everything around it.

Safer. Gentler. More up Vash's alley than something that can cause abject harm immediately. But it would be a start too, and it would be hard to close the door to knowledge once it was opened. "Not willingly, I'll admit. He didn't have much choice, when it was join me or join all his dead friends. If he thought you were a good avenue to both save his own life and spare humanity he might well choose to switch sides." Knives didn't think it likely, Vash was earnest but wasn't particularly persuasive when up against something like his younger self.

Automatically he glances upwards, as if the moon would be visible right now. If it was it'd be a bare crescent, faint in the light. "We happened to it. It's the secondary reason why I want you to practice control. When I was your age I was reckless and naive, and thought it was a brilliant idea to force you to use your power when that had gone so well previously, as surely THIS time you'd understand. You didn't, and well." Now the moon has a hole.

He rubs his chin with a slow thoughtful frown. "I'm not sure how long it'll take you to get enough precision to carve a proper smiley into it. We should probably table that for now."
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[personal profile] cowgoesmoo 2023-05-25 05:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Without medicine, without bandages and sutures and sprays and all the things from the med lab, without even a blanket to lay her on, there's nothing Vash can do but hold her hand tightly, like his grip is the only thing keeping her here. ]

I know. I know, I'd be scared too, but they won't anyone hurt you, right? [ He smiles, a little shakily, up at the wings hovering above them, surrounding them. Guarding them. ] Even if it's me, and that's good. It's good to have somebody to protect you.

[ His little feathers wave cheerfully, twining around her arm. If he was bigger, he could maybe do more, but what can he do? He's just a kid, and there's nothing around but sand, and rocks, and sky. There's nothing he can do for her. ]
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[personal profile] rejuvenation 2023-05-25 05:41 pm (UTC)(link)
They won't...

[ She agrees, and somewhere under it all she gives a tired, pained smile. Yeah, the sisters won't let anyone hurt her. Even if that means destroying everything in their path.

Humans, wams, plants. Anything.

Her eye-wing looks at the little waving feathers and some of her own gently waves back, a few curving around his like a mimic of their hand-holding. Just two kids, out in the middle of nowhere. ]


I think... I think you're s̭̺̗̃åͯͦ̃f̟̝̦̬ͬ̕e͔ͫ̽.
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[personal profile] cowgoesmoo 2023-05-25 06:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ They should have let her live. Beneath all that worry is so much anger at the way she was treated. They should have let her live! They should have seen a baby and treated it with love and kindness, the way Rem did with him and Knives! They should have let her be a little kid, and she should have been there when he and Knives were born, they should have been a family together.

His feathers stretch out more, a baby chick version of the canopy overhead, moving on their own to cover her and keep her from any more harm.
]

Do you sleep? [ As soon as he says it, he realizes it's a silly question -- everyone sleeps! ] You should stay here and rest. I'll go find help. [ He gives her hand a squeeze. ] Not people, I promise. Just stuff. Water and... and stuff. It'll be okay.
mercifullyheavy: (Grim head down)

lol omg yeah, I've done that, too. Just suddenly "Where did it go???"

[personal profile] mercifullyheavy 2023-05-25 06:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Vash pushing against his forehead, leaning in and filling his vision made his face fall all that much more, his heart aching, that smile making the hurt that much worse. But he pressed back, even as his vision blurred until he could barely make out the features of his face beside puddles of color, orange and blue eyes, pale skin and blonde hair that became a hazy mess that he tried to blink back into clarity.

"It's...it's not enough, though, is it? It's never gonna be enough." And he sounded almost devastated at the thought. "You're the only son of a bitch on this entire fuckin' rock that deserves some fuckin' peace, but-..."

Nothing can stop this kind of pain. He finds happiness with Wolfwood, but Wolfwood isn't immortal. Wolfwood's life won't even last as long as a normal human's, and then Vash will be back to square one, all alone, suffering in silence, letting himself be abused and hurt and shot and mangled and traumatized because he thought that was what he deserved.

And it all just reminded him of the man he'd left behind. How well they'd moved together, how strong they were as a team, how they just seemed to know each other better than anyone else ever had. And he'd left him. He'd let his foolish impulses take away one of the only things that might have, if he was as much like the man in front of him as Wolfwood knew he was, made him feel like he wasn't all alone and destined to suffer for God only knew how long.
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[personal profile] rejuvenation 2023-05-25 07:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Rest. [ She says softly, sounding so very tired. Sleeping normally didn't come easy to her, she was in too much agony to fall asleep, but sometimes she passed out for a while until the pain woke her again. She could probably be lulled into it like this, all soft baby down from a soft baby brother, tired in every way a person could be. Mentally, physically, emotionally, tired in the soul. ]

Don't f̧̟̘̿̓́ͬ̑́̈o̟͔̺̎͐̈́̆͋͂r̄͑ͥ̂̆̎g̞̩͋̈ͮ͝eͥ̊ͧt͎̯̳̱̻̱̞ͧͭ̚ about me. Please. P̈ͨ̔͑͂́l̇ͪ͒ͧe̸̫̘̳̤̯ͤ͋̿ͬ̉̉ͨa̭̘̩̲̞ṣ̳̳͕͓ͭ̓̏͒e̼ͦ̐̑̚.̰͔̳̮̙͗̄͝

[ Tessla isn't sure what she would do if he left her here forever. It might snap the last threads of her sanity. ]

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