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On The First Day

It had been months.

Months of terror, of families ripped apart, refugees racing against the Ark in the sky, against the Plants that had once been their only source of survival on the world and had now been turned against them, raining lightning and death down on them like the hand of a vengeful God. Humanity pushed to the brink, fleeing their homes and communities, waves of refugees fleeing across the sands as more and more towns and cities fell to the reign of destruction that had been biting at their heels every step of the way.

And then, as the last descendants of the survivors of the Big Fall clustered in the city of Octovern, spiilling out into the streets, every available, livable space filled to capacity and beyond, what felt like the final days of humanity began. The sounds of artillery fire filled the air, the sight of the Ark and its grotesque ruler loomed overhead, and in the distant sky high above, the previously-inconceivable reinforcement ships from Earth took up orbit around No Man's Land. Throughout the night, explosions lit up the sky, thundering with deafening reports through the air, and yet the civilians below had settled into a still, terrified, anticipatory silence. They couldn't see, from their perspective, the figures atop the ruins of the Earth's space destroyers that had already fallen to the ground, locked in battle for the future of the people far below. But the sight of Millions Knives high above, terrifying and grotesque with the power of the Plants he had absorbed, was omnipresent, a never-ending threat, the harbinger of doom, biding his time until he could make good on his promise to wipe every last one of them off the face of existence.

And then something had changed.

Electrical currents rippled through the air above the downed ship, carrying screams on the wind. To the people below, Millions Knives' massive form had shifted, writhing, bellowing with unholy rage and pain and despair. And then it begun to unmake itself, shredding, crumbling, tearing itself apart at the seams and floating to the ground in tiny, shining, white particles. Tiny, white feathers drifted on the wind, closer and closer before, one by one, they began to settle to the roofs of the buildings, to the tops of cars and to the streets, and to the heads and faces of the humans staring up from below.

The instant that contact was made between feather and skin, a connection was made; between Human and Plant, between each person standing side by side, minds thrown open in bursts of light and expanding consciousness, and through the doors sprang multitudes of memories spanning hundreds of years. Suffering, laughter, pain, sorrow, joy, enslavement, death, pride, love. The Plants had made the connection to their creators - their keepers - that they had been silently pleading for since their first containment, and with it every man, woman, and child on the surface of the world began to see and feel and hear their stories and their cries for help. They did not want this war, they did not want this destruction. They had seen the promises of vengeance and a paradise for their kind atop the bones of humanity offered by Millions Knives and they had felt the hopes and dreams carried by Vash the Stampede of a kinder, more loving world, and they had made their choice.

Of course, but...what would he do at a time like this?


I wonder if he'll laugh again


I wonder if he'll follow his ideals again.


I see. You all know him as well. That young man with a gentle smile.


Little Red Brother.


Let there be love and peace in this world.


In the chaos that followed, as the bodies of the Plants began tumbling to the ground in a writhing mass and the screams of shock and confusion began to rise from the sea of humanity below, something rippled in the air, a last gasp of those silent voices before the connection was lost.

Help Us. Help him. Please.


This was...different. New. As if reality had taken the distraction caused by the calamity below to shift itself sharply to the left, and then snapped. It started at the core of the mass of angelic bodies as men and women began to rush to their aid, a shockwave in the fabric of creation that rumbled silently in the atoms of the world and ricocheted outward, along the ground, through the air, until it had enveloped the entire planet. Time froze for an instant, and to the eyes of all who had the capacity for sight, that leftward shift became manifest, the world doubling on itself as the ground shook beneath their feet.

Wails of confusion and fear rose into the night sky, and for a brief moment, it felt as if the world were about to unmake itself on the molecular level. But then, just as suddenly as it had come, the distortion snapped back into place with a loud, ear-splitting CRACK, and in the stunned silence that followed, only one thing could be certain; things were not the same as they had been mere moments ago, as if everything and yet nothing at all had changed, all at once.

The world of No Man's Land was as it should be, but all across the surface of the planet, pockets of reality had split open, sending the inhabitants of mirrored existences tumbling through wide, unseen rifts. People and places outside of time and space found themselves staggering to their feet in a world that was both foreign and familiar at the same time, found themselves face to face with their own reflection made flesh, tossed about by the pleas of a race reaching across the fabric of creation for aid in putting a stop to a war that had been fought time and time again, across reality after reality, without fail.


Thus began the new chapter in the history of No Man's Land.



[Wherever your character was, whatever they were doing, when the rifts in reality opened, they will have found themselves rocked by a massive earthquake that lastes a few short seconds before settling with a loud crack, like thunder. While no damage will be left in its wake, the characters themselves will realize that though the planet appears to be the same, it will quickly become evident that they are in an alternate reality of the place they call home. Are they standing in the rubble of a once-destroyed city now remade whole? Is the bar they had been taking refuge in suddenly gone, leaving them tumbling to the sand with nothing but their drink in their hand? And what of the friends that had been standing by their side seconds before? This is where your stories begin.]
dontdeserve: (Default)

oh brother

[personal profile] dontdeserve 2023-05-12 08:53 pm (UTC)(link)
In the distance, there is a dot of red.

It's the wrong kind of red, probably, but it's moving... perhaps a little more erratically but just as steadfastly in the end. And if Knives is using his plant senses, there may be a gentle but repeated call in a voice that might or might not be familiar. The absence of Plants is disconrecting him in many ways, so he keeps... trying.

Vash spots the other person far, but he also does wait until he is within calling distance befor etrying to communicate, given that he doesn't expect this to be an Independent.

"Hey! Are you all right? It's dangerous out here on your own!"

Vash, you're doing the exact same thing-- it's not the same!
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[personal profile] nyctinasty 2023-05-12 09:06 pm (UTC)(link)
He always knew when Vash was nearby, and usually it could even wake him from a dead sleep, but it had been ... some time since he'd seen his brother. This however, was like and not like the sibling he had known, irregardless of the fact that Vash didn't call out like that, on a different level than voice.

It's a little and persistent tug. Foreign, though it would have pleased him long ago to think that finally, /finally/ his brother was reaching out to their own kind and not to humanity. But Knives himself remains quiet, the sense of his presence deliberately muted lest he pick up on one of his sisters nearby and old temptation return to extend his life, extend his power. He'd resisted this long, and intended to keep resisting.

But he stops, and remains where he is as the spot of scarlet instead of crimson draws closer, watching every move, every feeling, the voice--.

Vash. And yet .. not. Too young by far. It's as bizarre as his missing home and tree, something he glances back at briefly before focusing again on who is .. who might be, Vash.

One hand raises in a stilted echo of a wave; he'd never gotten used to most human gestures. "Yo."
dontdeserve: (Huh?)

[personal profile] dontdeserve 2023-05-12 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
As he is getting closer, and yes, still calling out, gently but persistently, he can feel... something different about this person, and he blinks at the disjointed wave. He doesn't feel like a human. He feels like, well, the only other Independent he knows, except. So much fainter? The realization makes his mental call out hiccup and then fade for a moment, as he stands and tries to make out the features. Except... he needs to come closer, so he does.

It's... less the dark hair (he's not gotten that memo yet) but certainly the wrinkles that make it finally sink in that it might. Might. Be his brother. So he yelps, and steps even closer, but stops at a reasonable enough distance away to not be a threat. It takes him a couple of attempts, lips parting but nothing coming out, before he finally manages to make another sound.

"... Nai?" It might be another independent, he thinks, somehow, but something in the way he carries himself makes Vash think it more likely that it is indeed him than anyone else, or random.
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[personal profile] nyctinasty 2023-05-12 09:41 pm (UTC)(link)
"..Now there's a name I haven't heard in a long, long time." It's nostalgic. Even Vash hadn't called him that since ... at least Augusta. He'd earned his nickname through time and extreme effort.

...Vash looks like he hadn't in decades, his hair a healthy and energetic blond, unharmed. That last part is surely completely wrong but such voluminous clothing always hid much, and then there's still the prosthetic arm. Different. Newer technology by the look of it.

He's certain Vash wouldn't have gone to their sisters to rehabilitate his power and life force, strip away the years and leave him youthful again. That's something he'd have done ... had done, once. So ... how?

All the details aren't quite right. All of them. Close but not quite. Knives doesn't seem hostile, overtly or otherwise, just puzzled, and something very much like wistfulness alongside it. "Humor me." There were possibilities he could think of, the question is, which one. Did his brother die, and his own reluctance to reach out means he missed it and this is some kind of reincarnation, still stupid and full of ridiculous ideals and hope?

"How old are you?"
dontdeserve: (Conceal)

[personal profile] dontdeserve 2023-05-12 09:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Despite their last encounter, Vash absolutely does not think to defend himself from Nai immediately, so that might give some idea of how young. Yet, at the same time - he shrugs, not a problem to indulge him.

"It has been a hundred and fifty years or so since the Crash." He doesn't exactly count his own years. But this is close enough.
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[personal profile] nyctinasty 2023-05-12 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Knives doesn't say anything again right away, but his expression shifts subtly. There's no lie in it as far as he can tell, though he was hardly an expert. Vash had his tells when trying to be deceptive, and he couldn't pick up any of them. One hundred and fifty years wasn't at all long enough.

That was about the time of when he'd all but ruined the world. But Vash wasn't flinching away, hadn't drawn a weapon, didn't seem suspicious and hostile, and that set a tightness to the back of his throat he's not expecting and swallows hard around. The echos of fear and hatred had been company for so long, to see them missing is almost painful, in the stinging way of pulling off a stuck bandage.

And then he raises one hand, towards his brother, palm up, drawing a brief, slow breath. "Come here." The butcher of millions' voice is quiet, but he knows he'll be heard. "I won't harm you, or make you harm anyone else. Even the humans. I just want to see something."

Touch had a way of enhancing their inherent gifts.
dontdeserve: (pout)

[personal profile] dontdeserve 2023-05-12 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Vash still does not flinch at the words, nor become angrier, but he does become a little sadder. He watches the dark-haired Independent for a long moment, before nodding and stepping closer.

"Just don't... exhaust yourself??" Quietly also. The reassuances help, though he's still ready for action... because the reassurances also tell him what he has done in the past. Why, nai...

He doesn't sieem likely, that he will answer.
nyctinasty: (2)

[personal profile] nyctinasty 2023-05-12 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
His touch is feather-light and careful, the muted hum of his own presence harder to hide this way, but he's already been found, so is that important?

"This doesn't take much effort. All I want you to do is think about the last couple cities or towns you've visited. The buildings, the environment. How did it smell? What did it sound like?" Almost all of that is completely irrelevant. But it's like being told to think of a white worm, it's almost as if one is compelled to immediately. It would take time, a delay to think of somewhere else.

All he needs is a skyline. He knows what he left the world as, how it's been rebuilt, and what it was like when he was still scouring the world for his abused sisters.
nurturing: (on the fifth celestial evening)

moms forgive!

[personal profile] nurturing 2023-05-13 12:10 am (UTC)(link)
So at least one whole ship survived. That's good.

[ It was probably not the best of situations for a little boy to be treated like a prisoner, but at least he was taken care of. Loved, if that coat said anything. He's okay, even if he's taller than her now, and... alone.

God, she needs to find Nai.

Still, Rem lets herself be led to wherever some shelter is, because her grown-up boy definitely knows more about this planet than she does. She smiles as she sees him find the ointment for her skin, but she lets him carry it for now. Maybe he needs it too, she has no idea how his plant physiology keeps on this planet. ]


Thank you.

[ Reaching out carefully, she brushes his hair away from his face, amused at the haircut. Better than her horrible lopsided attempts, at least. ]

I didn't know if I would be around to see you as an adult. It's so strange, I can't just pick you up and swing you around.
graveresemblance: liv (Default)

oh!!! that's wonderful!! i'd probably lurk...?

[personal profile] graveresemblance 2023-05-13 02:35 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I can drive.

[who taught him. let's not think about it.

Livio keeps nodding]


'Course. You would've, I know that for sure. I just-- am used to it out here, more.
graveresemblance: (pic#16391005)

[personal profile] graveresemblance 2023-05-13 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
[if only she knew how not a great idea that is.

friendly. so they've probably been traveling together for awhile. and for her to talk about him like she does. again, a relief, to know she isn't all alone.

Livio knew she could plausibly make water, but it's-- in a bottle, and when he wraps his fingers around it cautiously, it's cold, too. he flickers a wide eyed gaze at her--]


You-- wow! I--...thank you!
graveresemblance: (pic#16451377)

[personal profile] graveresemblance 2023-05-13 03:13 am (UTC)(link)
[he was here the entire time??? Vash is never a creepy old man, just a sad, sad child who needs. who needs....well, Livio isn't quite sure, not always. Vash's mouth says one thing but his eyes always say another.

he keeps his hands gently, gently on his shoulders, soft enough to shrug out of the bigger man's hold if he wants.]


It's okay. If Melanie's with them, even a worm doesn't stand a chance. We can take a few minutes to just breathe. You shoulda come out, [said lightly] the kids love seeing you.
climbedup: (Default)

hehehe link/invite is in the OOC comm, come in whenever you feel like it!

[personal profile] climbedup 2023-05-13 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
[ she gets it, that there are things that she'd better not ask about, at least not for a long time.

hopefully there will be a long time in which he'll come to terms with some of it can talk about it, not even necessarily to her, of course! just... talk about it. for now, they have immediate things to focus on.
]

Ha. Thanks, I do appreciate both the confidence and the consideration.

So, let's go looking. You lead this time.

[ ... so if there are areas he'd rather avoid, he doesn't have to explain. ]
graveresemblance: (pic#16451370)

<333333

[personal profile] graveresemblance 2023-05-13 06:05 am (UTC)(link)
[he's grateful. naturally, this is bad, very bad, but. it's better than talking about things he'd rather not, explain things, give any explanations about-- some tough stuff.

with another nod, he jerks his chin towards the side of a pile of rubble, which was a building once. better start there, check around corners both for people, and cars]
climbedup: (carer)

RIGHT BACK ATCHA

[personal profile] climbedup 2023-05-13 06:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ under normal circustances, she'd have suggested that they split up. but with his earlier warning that if they run into trouble, she should run away, she has the nagging suspicion that not only will he resist that, it will actually not be a good idea, for all the ways the place is quiet.

so she sticks close, relatively, except where she slips into narrower places to check for anything abandoned that they can use.
]
dontdeserve: (pout)

[personal profile] dontdeserve 2023-05-13 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
"The last couple--"

It doesn't take much. Not to think of Jeneora Rock, and the devastation Nai brought to it, the blades cutting into the rock, nor the last words from Rosa, her holding her son close.

Not to think JuLai, as it was as he approached it... and the crater that he found himself next to, after he was called in here.

"JuLai. I was- before here, I was going to JuLai."

The words are almost choked with the emotions and confusion, about what the city has come to.
mercifullyheavy: (<_<)

[personal profile] mercifullyheavy 2023-05-13 11:07 am (UTC)(link)
[God, if hearing the resolve in the kid's voice to find the other Vash didn't make Wolfwood's blood run just a little bit cold, he didn't know what would. He really needed to find Needle-Noggin before Knives did again, but he couldn't just leave the man crouched next to him alone with him, either, especially when they hadn't even checked the orphanage for Nico, yet.

He bit his tongue, though, puffing awy on that cigar as if things were just as fine as they could be, now that they had found the kid.

Unfortunately, watching the way those tiny hands held onto Vash's prosthetic, the way the sight of it seemed to effect him in a way that he was trying to hide, just reminded him of how much a child could be effected by things they'd experienced and the horrors they'd seen. How much it could change them. Just like Livio. Sweetest kid, timid and shy and lonely and just wanting someone to take care of him. And how the things he'd lived through had twisted him, made him seek out a monster of his own making if only it would keep him from ever being hurt again.

Despite himself, the realization hit him hard, and it hurt. The whole thing fucking hurt, and everything in him wanted to despise the person cowering in front of him.

He gave a deep sigh, shifting so he could sit, properly, the smile on his face turning sad before fading completely as he stared at those tiny hands grasping around green, shining metal.]


You know...[What had he called him? Not Knives.] Nai? It kinda has. The guy who took the plants...he's really been tryin' his hardest to hurt your brother for a really long time. I haven't known Vash for many years, really, but...the entire time I have...[He could tell this whole thing was balanced on a razor's edge. He could also tell that Vash had been attempting to be vague about what he told his brother. And honestly, he got it. So how exactly did you talk someone down from letting themselves become their own worst enemy, without making things worse?]

He's made a lot of people hurt Vash, a whole lot. Your brother doesn't like to talk about it a lot, an' that's ok. Sometimes things hurt too much to talk about, an' it's ok if he doesn't feel comfortable rememberin' all those things just so we can hear his story. But...I've seen things happen to him 'cause his-...enemies, the people this guy's been sendin' after him, want to do everything in their power to take away everything he cares about. It's why they're takin' away the plants. They say it's for other reasons, but...everything I've ever seen them do has just been to try an' hurt Vash...they even try an' make other people help do it, like...

[He chewed on his words for a moment, glancing over at Vash, really debating with himself whether it was a good idea to say what he felt needed to be said. Trust went a long way with kids who had trust issues. If they found out you'd been lying, it could fuck up the entire thing. He would know, he'd been one of those kids.

Oh well. In for a penny, in for a pound.]


Like me. They wanted me to help hurt 'im, they threatened the people I cared about to make me do it. He's too sweet, though. He makes you feel like you're his best friend. I couldn't do that to 'im. That's...how we got separated. Do you know what an orphanage is? A home for kids who's parents died or couldn't [Wouldn't] take care of 'em? Those guys found out I turned on 'em, so they went lookin' for the kids at the orphanage where I grew up. I knew your brother needed to take care of the other people that guy was hurtin' to get to him, though, so I left to help the kids on my own, an' got into a really bad fight. Your brother came an' helped, he saved all those kids...but I still got separated from 'im when it happened.

That's why I wanna help 'im, now. An' why I need to find the other Vash, to make sure he's ok. A lotta people really look up to your brother, you know? He does everything he can to make other people happy, an' he's real important to 'em. People are real worried about 'im, but it's not safe out there, with that other guy doin' all the things he does just to get to 'im. We think that's what that rumble might'a been about, the one that happened a few days ago? I couldn't hear the voices like you guys can, but it sounded like people were worried about 'im and askin' for help so he'd be safe.
dontdeserve: (Alone)

[personal profile] dontdeserve 2023-05-13 11:27 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, Nai...

[ It's been a long time, hasn't it? Nai's words made Vash's lower lip tremble just once. He caught the shades, as they fell, slipping them on his own face effortlessly, the green fingers wrapping gently around one hand holding them as he tugged, just a little. If Nai followed, he would get hugged with Vash's right arm, gently but closely. So he could listen to it all from right there. Or not. As he chose to.

As Wolfwood's words kept coming, Vash had to bite his lip to not come close to tearing up again. He could fill in the gaps that Wolfwood was leaving, at least some of them, and thought how horrifying that must have been. For both of them. And how Knives--

God.

He took a shaky breath, then let it out slowly.
]

Before you think all the wrong things... my arm was cut off to save my life. Back then, I got... very upset, and my Gate opened, from my left hand. But unlike for most plants, my gate is not one that you can take out of. It goes the other direction. And since I could not control it at all, it started sucking everything in. It was cut off so I would not be sucked in, or worse. It has been a long time, but not all of it has been bad.

And... the one that Wolfwood is speaking about. He isn't attacking me because I'm an Independent, he comes after me, or the other me, because he wants to destroy humans and leave only plants. And I - I don't want anyone to be destroyed. Humans, plants, Independents, Worms... I think we can all live in peace.
dontdeserve: (sheepish)

he'll have a chance to learn now!

[personal profile] dontdeserve 2023-05-13 12:42 pm (UTC)(link)
A number of ships survived! Most of the cities are kind of built around them, and there are some that serve as transportation still. At least... back where I come from.

[ If the numbers are comparable between the universes, however, well. Let's say a hundred-odd ships survived out of a thousand.

There are things Vash thinks are not forgivable. Being an accomplice to this is among them. Which is why he can't even begin to blame Luida and Brad and everyone there for back then. Instead, he'll be just grateful he did not end up like Tesla.

He ducks his head a little - but not enough to move out of her touch - and laughs sheepishly. She's a scientist, not a hair stylist, she did great!
]

Well... Luida and Brad are still around, thanks to cryosleep, so I think you could have!

[ ... wait. ]

Rem? Why would you think you wouldn't be around?
mercifullyheavy: (Grim head down)

LOOK DON'T MAKE HIM MAKE PROMISES HE CAN'T KEEP OK

[personal profile] mercifullyheavy 2023-05-13 03:19 pm (UTC)(link)
He shifted a little when he felt him hunching his shoulders, sighing to himself as he let him talk. There were times when he could almost forget, when Vash was doing his best to appear happy and calm and without a care in the world, just what Luida had told him. But the more time he spent around him, any version of him, it seemed, the more impossible it was not to see just how much he hurt, how much he felt like he needed to hurt. It was maddening, sometimes. Time and time again, Vash had proven himself to be more deserving of happiness than so many people he'd suffered for. And it hurt Wolfwood, too, in a way he couldn't quite explain. Watching him beat himself up, let himself be tormented, when he deserved so much better. If there was something he could have done that could finally get through to him, to show him just how much he mattered, he would have done it in an instant.

But life was never that easy, was it? Especially not, it seemed, when you lived long enough to watch everyone you love die, and then their children, and their children.

"...I wish I had the answers for you, I really do." He turned his head to rest his chin against the top of Vash's head and held him a little tighter. "You keep trying, over and over again, to take on everyone else's pain, but it really doesn't work that way, I'm sorry. And I know you just want to help, but...Vash, you're not God. Maybe the closest damn thing to it on this speck of dirt, but you're still just..."

Not human, no. Not technically. But that didn't mean he had less humanity than anyone else, with all it's frailties and hardships.

"You're still just one man. You can't keep blaming yourself because you're not perfect. Nobody is. It's not your responsibility to be everyone's punching bag. You deserve to be happy, too."

But...again. It was never that easy, was it? Not with that much pain, not with everything he'd been through. Some hurts just never really went away, and there were people who hadn't had the courage to keep going after enduring much less than Vash had. How was he supposed to even fix that?

He gave a small, sad smile, shifting again and pressing his face against Vash's cheek before he realized just what he was doing, though he didn't move away once he had.

"I know it's not really something that just happens, though. No amount of words from me is gonna fix it, and I'm sorry. But you don't have to suffer alone, you know? It's alright to ask for help if you need it. Even if it's just...a hug, or takin' a break. You've got people who love you an' want you to be happy. But you also don't have to pretend just to appease 'em, either. Just let 'em help if you're hurtin'. That's...that's all we wanna do, is help. We can handle it, I promise.

I...know we don't live as long as you do, but...at least let us help make things easier on you while we're here, alright? And I mean it. I can tell when you're hidin' behind those fake smiles'a yours. Always been able to." The little chuckle he gave was just a bandage on a bullet wound. More than likely, Vash would take everything he'd said and find a way of turning it around on himself, blaming himself for worrying the people who cared about him. But he needed to hear it, that people wanted to help. Sometimes he wondered just how often he'd been told. How often people had just let him take their burdens without complaint, without thanks, and without a thought to how it left him just a little bit more hollow inside.
celestialcrybaby: (Max Awkward Grin)

[personal profile] celestialcrybaby 2023-05-13 05:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[Honestly, more often than not, Vash wasn't sure what he needed, either. He'd long since settled into a life of doing everything but trying to figure out what was in his own head. It was just easier that way.

He shook his head gently, glancing around them, though he didn't shake him off. It helped, at least a little, the weight of his hands helping keep his thoughts grounded.]


But where did they go? Did you see what happened? [His face twisted almost imperceptibly, the corner of his mouth twitching. His voice was softer when he continued, and he deliberately didn't look up at him.] I...I don't think I would have been great company, Livio. Past few months've been...kinda hard...

[But then he looked up at him again with a watery smile, his eyes closing almost immediately to keep the tears back and because, for some reason, it made it easier to talk without his voice cracking around the pain when they were.]

Maybe sometime soon, though, yeah? I didn't get to meet them properly, last time. Things were...things were too much. They might not even recognize me now, anyway, right? Had a lot more blond hair back then.

[His little laugh probably wasn't fooling anyone.]
dontdeserve: (Resigned)

he won't. he won't make him promise anything ever.

[personal profile] dontdeserve 2023-05-13 06:02 pm (UTC)(link)
It was, in a way, excruciating, to be held like this, the comfort and the proximity, the way Wolfwood's chin moved, and then the warmth of his cheek, the faint sensation of the stubble, all, all of them real, and gifted to him without the threat that it would be just snatched away - while at the same time the words, which he could appreciate, he could not take, not... not in the way that were meant. Not the underlying assumption. And the rest...

You've got people who love you an' want you to be happy. so simple and honest, and Vash knew exactly how true it was, but they- He did not want them to be wrong, but they were.

"I don't." Vash's voice was hoarse, even as the cheek that Wolfwood rested his own against was dry. "I don't deserve it." Not to be happy. Not even to indulge his hurt enough to cry over it. "I am... sorry. That I have to disappoint. But I don't deserve any of it. The-- everyone, everything here. All the fear, all the suffering. All who died in the crash, and even those who couldn't survive without the plants. It's partly my fault. I made it possible."

Millions upon millions of lives lost. And more, all around them.

"How can - how can anyone with that deserve to be happy?" A deep, shaky breath, and his voice dropped to barely above a whisper. "I'm sorry. I'm... sorry. It...

"At least if more people are all right, the weight lifts, a little."

'You'll be all right' really just...

He probably should have just taken it. Accepted it. He could see that in retrospect, but everything had him so shaken, he couldn't take one more thing. He needed to get better, again.

They probably should get going again, too. But the thought of stepping back and catching even a glance of Wolfwood's face was more than he could bear right now. He was going to. In just a little bit.
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[personal profile] littleblades 2023-05-13 06:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ the sight of december in the not-too-far distance is amazing on its own, certainly far bigger than the little town he and vash had gone into before. nai lifts his head to stare wide-eyed and coming to notice the same details vash notes himself. ]

Is it empty...?

[ he can't hear anything like he did in the town, only dead air fills the space. ] Vash?
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[personal profile] littleblades 2023-05-13 06:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ vash's gentle tug earns him the desired effect, nai moving easily to lean into his brother's embrace. he tucks his face into the crook of vash's neck and breathes in, silent as he listens.

he can read between the lines, as much as he's done his best not to for his own sake. maybe if he hadn't already been told these things earlier, hadn't already broken down in frustration and bubbling anger, his response would be more than this subdued, heaviness that covers him. he pulls vash's prosthetic hand close to his chest, holding it there with a tight grip. his shoulders twitch when vash brings up his gate - a surprise that he can't help but feel a little proud.

his little brother... could it be? nai never felt better than vash that he had powers that seemed unreachable for his brother, instead taking it as a call to action. it was his birthright to use these abilities to keep his brother safe.

yet it seems in that area he had failed. another frustrating pang of hurt lodged in his chest. best to shove that down as far as he can. ]


I can't really help you, can I? [ he turns his head just to keep his voice from sounding muffled. ] I don't know where he is now. [ frustration laces his tone, he lets go of vash's hand to throw his arms around his brother's neck. ] Vash...
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[personal profile] love_and_peace 2023-05-13 06:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Kni!

[ Vash jumped down from the pile of rubble he'd been standing atop, scouring the city for any signs of his very small, very missing, brother. It was possible -- probable, even? -- that when he'd vanished he'd returned to his own time, but enough strangeness had happened today that Vash wasn't about to take any chances. Octovern can wait -- if little Kni is here somewhere, Vash is going to find him.

Go to a bar, he'd said. If we're separated, go to a bar and use their radio to call Luida. That would be his first step -- every bar, tavern, inn, restaurant in December that wasn't boarded up or currently on fire was about to get checked, and thoroughly.
]

Kni, where are you!?

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